I have been continually feeling / experiencing how insignificant our thought process is in the unfolding of life. Lately I have a tendency to meditate on “thoughts” more and more. The beauty of this lies not in the fact that I have really been mediating on thoughts or thinking. I have been experiencing the exact opposite.
The experiences are continually provided a portal, whereby it becomes easier to remain anchored in conscious awareness. I don’t know how I can really describe this portal. These experiences have provided me with a feeling of freedom. There are situations and confrontations that cause given thoughts to become the center point of our conscious “being”. That is why we are often so confused and distracted by thoughts that mean nothing. This reminds me of a passage from William Shakespeare’s “Macbeth”.
“To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
~ William Shakespeare, Macbeth
The last sentence from Macbeth describes what most of our thoughts represent. This is how the human brain usually functions. What I have been feeling is however fascinating; perhaps not so typical. Many of the thoughts that have always dominated my conscious awareness are becoming less and less meaningful. It is possible to feel the simplicity experienced through letting go.
Imagine what it would feel like to observe your thoughts and behavior from a distance. I compare this experience with seeing a passenger train entering a valley at one end and leaving out the other end. It feels so good because I am no longer a passenger on this “express train of thoughts”. I am the “one” seeing myself and my thoughts from the valley ridge high above. Sometimes this express train has a few thoughts on-board; on other occasions it has many. I have felt this during mediation and during my daily activities.
Observing the thought train from this perspective allows me to let go of its supposed importance. I have felt an incredible shift in object consciousness because of this adjusted perspective. There are many occasions when I will wave my hand at the thoughts that I sense on the train and smile as each one goes by. This projects a message to the content of my mind.
Train of Thoughts be gone!
The message being sent is one of acceptance. I accept that there are thoughts present in the brains activities and then I tell the thoughts traveling on the train that I do not need or want this distraction. The hand waving gesture indicates that I have better things to do with the precious moment in which we are engulfed. This lets the thoughts that the brain has sent know that although they have briefly distracted me; I will not join them on the train. I would rather remain on the top of the hill waving goodbye to them.
It is amazing what can be felt after obtaining a firm position on the hilltop of life consciousness (self). Many different express trains of thoughts come and go each day. I have actually felt my attention shift away from the thought contents on-board any given train. Often I am more fascinated by the train itself; the steady beat of the locomotive. I watch it move through the valley. I feel the river and the forest surround the train as it meanders through the valley. All the while I know that the thoughts are there peering out the train windows. They do this in an attempt to divert me away from the portal of life. I simply smile and wave goodbye.
This is something that may help you to release the hold that mind conditioning has on consciousness.